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aliki ([personal profile] aliki) wrote2010-08-16 11:05 am

Answer: 16 Days

That's the number of days left before I go back to work, something I haven't done since March 19, 2010. I feel rusty and awkward. It feels like a lifetime ago. I feel like a different person. Work suddenly doesn't seem that important to me anymore.

I know I will cry on September 1st. Erika turned four months old on August 10th, and the longest I've been apart from her is five hours, when I went to Linda's baby shower and she stayed home with Daddy. I thought of her with every breath I took. My chest ached to feel her against my body. I missed her silly lopsided smile, or the way her eyes crinkle into crescent moons when she laughs, or the way she snorts as she laughs when I pretend to eat her belly.


Erika on Aug 12, 2010.
(17 weeks old)

Two weekends ago, Erika was baptized on August 8th. Shockingly I didn't take a single photo that day-- I was too busy tending to Erika! I'm waiting for friends/family to send them to me. She was so beautiful and so well behaved.

Sometimes I forget how much she's grown till I see photos like this. She's the size of a toddler! (And actually, several strangers have rudely commented "your toddler doesn't walk yet?" Ummm, no, she's 4 months old.) But she's got wonderful head control and is a great supported sitter.

[identity profile] steforama.livejournal.com 2010-08-17 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
I did a "trial run" day with Cecilia, where I dropped her off for a day on the Friday before I started work, just to see how things went and I would be available if necessary. I did some errands and chores that day and also sobbed and looked at pictures of her :)

It was definitely more of a trial run for me than her!

[identity profile] aliki.livejournal.com 2010-08-17 04:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Since Bri is taking paternity leave for six weeks when I return on Sept 1, it'll be a little easier since I'm just visualizing I've gone to the grocery store while Daddy is home with her... and that grocery trip went on for seven hours... I hope.

Not sure which will make me more teary. Her at home with Daddy but I dont get to see her at all during the workday; or her at daycare but I get to see her during lunch.. Hmm.